So here we are, well over half way through the school summer holidays. We’ve had some quiet days, some fab days out and our family fortnight – including a week in gorgeous (if not always sunny,) Cornwall.
The holiday is, as always, flying. I’m now almost half way through the two weeks, which is my least favourite fortnight of the year, where the older two are with their respective other parents and Richard is back at work. Following straight on from our family fortnight where all five of us were together, the difference is well….stark. Finn has noticed too – he’s asking for the others multiple times per day, irrespective of my repeating where they are each time.
Right from the very first year that Ellie went away like this I’ve always found that if I allow myself to think about it too much, to dwell on it, then the ache of missing her becomes much bigger. So, from the very first year I’ve always kept myself busy. One year I went on holiday so I wasn’t at home where she normally was, other years I’ve worked long days and last year with the added dimension of being home alone with a baby (ahhhh!!!!) I meticulously planned every day for Finn and I to be doing things.
This year has been different – I haven’t planned most days and I hadn’t really had time to think about it much until it was here. So as I hit the half way point I can’t help but feel surprised at how well it’s gone.
I obviously still miss the kids and I look forward to the moment Richard comes home from work, but Finn and I have had lots of fun. Most crucially (and I don’t want to tempt fate as we’ve a week to go) we’ve spent lots of time on our own but still had a good time!! I’ve managed to do some jobs around the house as well as spend time focussing on Finn and I feel like we’ve made the most of our quality time together. There’s no doubt that at 19 months old Finn is more often than not great fun and I’m going to treasure these moments. Here’s some of them…
Finn responds to my asking him to ‘smile for the camera’:
Finn helping mummy with the washing:
Snuggles before nap time: