So after my recent ‘Little’ news post (see here if you missed it) this post is a summary of the brilliant stuff and the not so brilliant stuff of my pregnancy so far – yes at 16 weeks there’s more than enough to share already.
The brilliant stuff!
1. The happy – how can you not enjoy the smiles and happiness that news of someone being pregnant brings. With it actually being me who is pregnant I have really enjoyed sharing the news with friends and family. Happy happy happy news – everyone is smiling.
2. Belly kissing – now whether it will last I don’t know but Ellie has taken to kissing ‘baby’ aka my belly multiple times per day. It’s sweet and lovely (although I’d be grateful if she stopped trying to lift my top up to get to the actual belly when in public).
3. My bump. I think it’s quite big for 16 weeks (see my bump selfie!) but I love it. Turns out I’m one of those pregnant women who finds themselves patting and stroking their belly. What the hell – I’m going to embrace it.
4. Having to eat ‘little and often’ – particularly in the first 12 weeks (ish) I found that eating in this way made me feel a lot less yukky (more on this later) and even though I’m a grown up I do love this way of eating rather than big meals and big gaps.
The less brilliant stuff!
1. Throwing up – which I did quite a lot in the first few weeks. It’s stopped now and I genuinely found it a reassuring sign that the hormones were doing what they should (weird?) but nonetheless throwing up in the car park of the National Trust house we were visiting was the yukky highlight so far.
2. The worry – I think most people worry during their pregnancy, especially early on, that everything is going to be ok. The thing is I don’t want to spend my pregnancy fretting – assuming all goes well this will be my last ever pregnancy and I want to enjoy it. As such I would be really grateful if people could stop telling me about the many things that can go wrong in pregnancy, or the tragic experiences where ‘people they know‘ have sadly miscarried at ‘about the stage you are now’, or why I shouldn’t buy anything too early. Please can I just enjoy being pregnant – believe me I know the risks and problems but I fully intend to be ‘head in the sand’.
3. Cramp – this wasn’t something I experienced with my last pregnancy so has been quite something to experience. It’s not even about those moments when you suddenly have sharp cramps (usually in the middle of the night) but the fact that you seem to have a slight, achy ongoing cramp for days. It’s off again at the moment, but I am ready with my magnesium spray for the next bout.
I am purposely not looking for a number 4 to add to the list of ‘not so brilliant’ – let this reflect the fact I think being pregnant is fab and the brilliant stuff outways the rest. Oh yes I do!
I’m excited (and a little freaked out) to say that I’m 14 weeks pregnant. Yes it’s big news in our household and explains why my posting has been sporadic for a while … it’s hard to write posts and not talk about the BIGGEST thing happening at the time!
We’ve had our 12 week scan and another scan which we paid for privately – mostly because of my age and partly because of paranoia but it was worth it for the reassurance and the 34, yes 34, pictures.
So finally its time to share and I’m delighted to introduce Little Saunders:
At 14 weeks pregnant the sickness has finally subsided – although I’m still getting tired easily and most crucially I’m still periodically taken over by this feeling of hysteria that I’m having a baby. It’s been over 7 years since I had Ellie and I can’t quite believe I’m doing it again – in my head I wasn’t sure I would ever get the chance – and even when we decided to try to have a baby it wasn’t real – now it really is.
The hardest thing so far though was trying to hide my not insignificant bump until after the scan. Once we had finally told the kids I asked Ellie if she’d noticed my belly getting bigger, now you instantly know this was a silly question to ask and her reply was inevitably … ‘Yes, but I didn’t think it was a baby’. I didn’t need to ask for any further clarification.
Fortunately my tummy is now getting a lot of love and kisses from Ellie so I reckon that makes up for it.
My biggest challenge just now is trying not to worry about whether everything is going to be ok but to actually enjoy my pregnancy. Sounds simple but it’s not. I’m sure this is something I will be blogging about more in the weeks to come but for now …. I’m off to bed.
I haven’t posted for a while – not because I’ve been too busy, or because the children aren’t amusing me constantly – but because I haven’t had any specific inspiration of what was worth sharing. (I like to think that when I post, it’s something worth you reading – delusions of grandeur maybe!) Anyway – What I have had is time to think and enjoy everyday life. How amazing is that!
Seriously – it might sound odd but think about it just for a second. How often do we actually get time to just enjoy daily life?!
The other day I saw one of those inspirational quotes going round social media. This one really caught my eye. It went something like this:
If you have family that love you, good friends, food on the table and a roof over your head – you’re richer than you think.
It got me thinking – our family aren’t rich in money but we are rich in lots of other ways and the recent steady pace has given me chance to enjoy those things. I didn’t even realise I was specifically doing that, but then I looked back at the pictures I’d snapped over the last few weeks and it’s like a list of things that make me happy. Have a look:
Tea for two with Ellie – she might only dunk her biscuits and leave her tea but we do it together.
I’ve done a fair bit of gardening and I’m chuffed with how it’s coming on. More importantly most mornings and evenings I’ve sat in the garden with a cup of tea enjoying my handiwork. There’s some added pleasure being in my gardening shoes and pjs at the same time. Weird but true.
I’ve spent some time with my parents – something there is no doubt I treasure even more after my mum was really ill in the last year.
I’ve successfully planted up the veg patch and got the green house started. The first radish, lettuce and rocket have been eaten and I’m hopeful for the rest!
Ok so this is a bit of a cheat as I couldn’t find a photo from the last few weeks with the whole family on, that was good enough to share, but we have had a lot of family time together recently – having fun and laughing. This photo was taken a month or two ago but it does clearly shows what I mean. (Note to self – must improve photography skills!)
So there you go – this is a little reminder to myself to never forget to appreciate every day life. It’s just to easy to let it pass me by.
I really struggled to write this post. I knew I wanted to post the picture, but explaining it seemed really complicated. So I’ve gone the opposite way and decided to keep it really simple.
This is Ellie and her step Dad.
Joining two families together really can be challenging and hard, but it also can really work.
There are lots of things in the world that I would describe as beautiful but this picture is one of the most beautiful things I have ever seen.